Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Emotional Roller Coster

So here are the events of today.

L texts me around 2:40 asking me if I could call her. I responded and said I could in 20 minutes once school was out and should I be panicking. She said she didn’t know, was on her way to up to Dr. C’s to get checked out. So I go next door and ask my teammate to keep an eye on my kids and run outside and call L. She explained that she had some pink spotting yesterday but that it turned to red bleeding this afternoon. And rather than worry and stress until tomorrow’s scheduled appointment she was told to come on in and be seen. Thankfully I have the best teammates on the planet who stepped up and took care of my kids so I could rush to the appointment. I get there and a few moments later Dr. C comes in and we talked for a second, he said he wasn’t too concerned, but that we would just take a peek. As soon as he starts the ultrasound we see 2 sacs. L immediately says, “there’s 2!” But I couldn’t see any heart beats yet. Dr. C starts with the smaller sac, and for a second I thought I saw a HB, but wasn’t sure. He then decided to move to the bigger fact and get its measurements first. And then he says, “Well I’ll be!” and L responds with, “there’s 2!” So now, in my minds I am thinking, Two! But there are two sacs, so if there are also 2 in this one, that means THREE! Holy *@#%!
So now we know there are three babies, but don’t know anything about heartbeats. When he finds the first heartbeat, that’s when I pretty much lose it. And my poor mom, when I called she rushed out of her meeting to join me (Dave was out at the lake and couldn’t get back in time.)and she had walked into the u/s room right after I started bawling. So she walks in thinking we just found out bad news. Apparently Dr. C informed her they were good tears. Then the room gets a bit chaotic, lots of laughing, crying, questions, etc. Dr. C and his assistant were probably pretty annoyed with us, but oh well! Its not every day you go from thinking you have lost your baby to finding out there are three in there!

The set of identicals look great. We are currently at 7 weeks gestation exactly and Baby A is measuring 7 weeks 3 days with a HR of 129 and Baby B is measuring 7 weeks 2 days with a HR of 125. Baby C (the fraternal triplet, the one in its own sac) isn’t looking as good. That baby was measuring 6 weeks 2 days and we couldn’t tell if there was a heartbeat. At first Dr. C thought there was one, then he didn’t, then he did, then he thought it was just L’s internal pulse. He thinks the bleeding is from Baby C miscarrying. And that it shouldn’t affect the other babies at all.
This is where I have a mix of emotions. As a parent, you don’t want to lose any of your babies. But at the same time, it would be a relief to only have a set of twins and not triplets. The financial end of having 2 babies (and 1 toddler) is stressful enough, having 3 would be that much more. I am just going to leave it completely in God’s hands, and it will be what it will be.

We go in for a repeat ultrasound next Wednesday, and by then we should know what is happening with Baby C.

Today I have gone from being super low, expecting to hear the worst, then shooting up to a super emotional high, then up, then down. Man, I am exhausted!!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Happy Birthday to Our Miracle

I can't believe my nephew is one year old! I was thinking back on the day of his birth, and all the fear we had during that time. And now, here we are celebrating his first year of life. We witnessed a miracle the day he was born, and I am so honored to be part of his life. There are times when I look at him and this fear washes over me when I realize how close we came to losing him. I try not to think about it, but sometimes it just hits me. So whenever I see him (which is not nearly enough, *cough, cough*) I just want to hold him, and squeeze him, and kiss him, and tell him how much I love him. I love that kid as much as I love my own!

For his birthday, I turned many of the pictures I had of him, and turned it into a slide show for my sister. I have always said I was going to do that for the Nacho each year, but never have. But this past year with my nephew was too important to pass up.

Untitled from Janelle Opon on Vimeo.

Monday, September 12, 2011

My Video

I made a little video that I wanted to share with everyone. I guess you could call it my "Thanks for being one of our prayer warriors" video. It is only about 40 seconds, so it won't take too much of your time. But I think you will enjoy it, I know I have watched it several times and still haven't gotten tired of it. Let me know what you think!